Return of the ....whatever.....

I’m back, recharged n rejuvenated n revitalized, err… this looks like a pharmacy clinic add. anyways, I have had the time to pause n see the direction I am going in n the one I should go in, n they are somewhat different so I have decided to do a lot of things differently from now on n I better do them soon. The next month or so is gonna be a super sonic ride starting from tomorrow; have to catch up with lot of things.

Thankfully, I have managed to straighten up my cabin after I landed here at about 8 in the morning. Noooo.. come on. now don’t get the wrong picture, not much improvements, I am still somewhat lazy.. I dint even touched a thing; the house keeping boy was waiting for the keys of my cabin. As I came and handed over the keys and it’s done, clean and tidy. But the real mess will start from tomorrow, now I am facing a lil nutritional crunch rite now, wait, I just remembered that one of the things I decided to do differently is to spend lesser time on things not causing an increase in my p p. I think blogging won’t lead to any kinda decrease in my PP under any circumstances. So now the shutters are gonna be pulled down on this post, as it is chow time, and the egg sandwiches is calling me…no really I can hear it… But ill be back with a lot more on what I did, read, watched and most importantly "thought". Ya u read that right, I actually THOUGHT a lot.

Oh yaa, about the picture above it’s suppose to be my Kundli … just got a new software, my star world, so was trying it out. lagta hii mera shani bahri hii.. heeee…. To say frankly I dint understand a word of it, may be I have be some Pandit or something to understand these kinds of things…. ok egg sandwiches here I am come…….

Struggles, Stresses & Season

What a beautiful day, I had a troubled morning, was struggling to keep a firm handle of things in work and some pressure was building. You can almost feel your shoulders drop in mornings like that. There's a resistance in the air and simple things become just that bit more difficult. It's nothing serious as such but for sometime it’s like…. ooooffffffffffff. Then it happens, something triggers you out of your trance-like state. It doesn't just ease things; it turns them on their head. You stop and you realize you're fully in control. It's like someone presses the pause button.

It's true that without struggle, we're nothing. Everyone needs that driving force to push them forward and make them stronger. I think sometimes I need this push more. You know sometimes I am torn in two - half of me want to drive forward and keep constructive, the other half of me wants to relax a bit and slow things down.

I think the balance between struggle and stress is in attitude. You allow stress into your body when you lose sight of the bigger picture. It takes tremendous mental strength to stay positive, especially in higher levels, and in the end you become stressed if you lose touch with..why you do, what you do in the first place. Like anything else if it breeds inside you unchecked I imagine it would be very hard to rid yourself of it. On a mental note - never permit yourself to become stressed out.

Well about the season, it’s too hot and humid in this part of the world. Temperatures reaching above 40 everyday, within 2 minutes you can get wet outside. Now I have got sun block cream of 100 SPF, well that was the maximum sun protection factor cream available. Ohh my teeth is paining… shit, this Genny came toady with a box of chocolates in hand, she was distributing, I took 2 of it and eat, then asked her.. what was it for , she replied its my birthday, oh ok I wised her happy birthday. I think I should stop these chocolates now... it’s screwing up my teeth’s. Or people should stop coming in front of me offering free chocolates.

First Blog Anniversary

Well today is the first anniversary of my blog “Panting Colors of Life” It’s been one year today I had started it. I would like to thank all my friends for their comments and support, especially my friend Krishna who encouraged and helped me in making one. I also thank you guys for being there always for me at any point of time, whenever I needed some one to talk.

Thanking you all, My Regards

Stuck But.. Positive Thinking

I was hoping to get a lot more achieved tonight than I have so far. I'm doing some preparation work for an assignment that I'm quite excited about, but my work is painstakingly slow. You know I'm struggling and I can't give myself good reason as to why my energy isn't higher today. May be I am feeling a bit drained. I really need some positive thinking.

Well over-thinking, it's quite a thing. If you think long enough and hard enough about anything, you can convince yourself of all kinds of negative problems. The easiest and simplest things in the world can become treacherous, even nigh on impossible tasks if you think too much. I think just thinking priority wise is fair enough. I'm sure all of us see, everyday, people with natural talent failing, or following on in mediocrity until the joy of the thing is gone. Similarly, a committed, or mentally strong person, can achieve limitless success through grit and determination. I guess thinking has the potential to be the most powerful, or the most destructive force we have available.

Yet, moment to moment, we allow our thoughts to stray and wander unchecked. The reality of the fact is that talent is a common thing, and possessing talent does not give anyone the right to succeed in anything. Positive thinking and determination they are the tools. Something I would do well to remind myself of a lot more often, and I think it's helping me in getting positive results..now i hope to finish this assignment stuff soon, and thennn.... some thing more positive I will raid the kitchen, feeling very hungry....

Lazy today

Was feeling very lazy today, got up around 10 am or so. Last night had a call at 2:30, you know sometimes I hate this late night calls, which is a disaster to may beauty sleep, cant help it just part of my job.. first of all I had slept late after watching the football match, I was happy that Portugal beat England, so England time to back home, but I was sad again after Brazil lost to France, I hate France @#@$@. I had hopes form that team, So after sleeping late and watching a miserable match and seeing your favorite team loose, I get a call at 2:30, was in my deepest sleep, I was rudely awoken.. realized that something is going on, some sort of bell is ringing, oohh noo its the dam phone, fuck man that’s horrible, some how I got up and picked up the yelling phone, said hello good morning, now you know it’s a service industry, no matter how bad mood you are in , but still have to be like polite nature. It was paaji calling, he is a Punjabi so we call him paaji , well he is the night auditor, he said good morning Tanveer bahi, shayad system ko kuch hoo gya hii , Monrose ka report pick up nahi huwa audit mee, gaddi bhej doo, hhmm I said ok paaji , gadii bhej do maii ata hoo, and kept the phone. Then went there solved the report problem had the breakfast and came back till 5:30 or so then went to sleep again and got up only around 10 am.

Came to office, have a little headache, ordered a strong black coffee, just took a tablet also, hope that helps. Oh yaa I should thank Sneha for taking the trouble of bringing more tablets for me. Now I have to begin the technical paper of the new project, and I plan to complete it today it self, lets see if I can. To be frank, just will pick up crap from my earlier report and copy it. I have done enough on this project already. I have actually done quite about this project, but it s only that since im a quite easy sort of guy, others end up taking up credit for my work and I don’t mind that much. but now I guess this thing doesn’t pay much and ill have to try to change things, I don’t know if I can do this but I think that to be somewhat cunning is better than being a guy who is popular but so easy that he doesn’t claim what he deserves. So many times I have decided that ill be more cunning in day to day matters but always end up being the same laid back guy who is left with all the work, This thing was very eventful for me ,if not interesting and I plan to put it up as soon as possible.

Thought of the Month

"You shouldn't compare yourself to others

They are more screwed up than you think"